As Long as Human’s Exist, War will be Around

It’s true. Until everyone agrees, which will never happen, there will not be peace. So just live with it.

 

Syiniyed

Who will know?

That the dead soldier coming back from the line of duty will be me?

Syiniyed’s Pain

Lol Gaming During Class

Yeah brought my laptop to class today and so I ended up gaming shit up like a champ! Also I got the yearbook and I need people to sign it!

 

Syiniyed’s Joy

Goodnight

I’m going to bed now. Ciao

 

Syiniyed’s Joy

Goodnight

Everytime I sleep... I can’t stop thinking about things… And those voices in my head just wont stop. There must be something that my conscience wants me to do before I go.

Syiniyed’s Pain

AW FUCK!!!

DAMN ANKLE HURTS LIKE A BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Syiniyed’s Rage

Goodnight world

I’m going to bed so I can talk to her more tomorrow.

Syiniyed’s Joy

Ugh…Team names are hard to make

We can’t seem to come to a conclusion….WTF?

 

Syiniyed’s Rage

I can’t believe myself

I feel really greedy right now. I thought that I could change everything around me for the better. Turns out I didn’t understand the amount of damage that had been done. I know that I may make her happy now, but our destiny is to not be with each other forever. One day, she’ll find someone who understands her better than me who can actually care for her. But until then, I’ll keep holding her on until I cannot anymore.

Syiniyed’s Pain

Goodnight World

Goodnight. I know as soon as I open my eyes tomorrow, I get to see her face soon. That makes me happy. But sad while I know she does not sleep well.

 

Syiniyed’s Pain

It’s Raining

As I watch how today it rained. It seems like the heavens either cried out tears of happiness or joy for me. Either way I love the rain. For I would have it no other way than to spend time with her today.

Syiniyed’s Grief

Gee mom…

Holy crap! Can't you guys at least TRY to know when I have my PATs if you think it's so damn important? I mean come on! This morning I said that my Social Final was today and like 20mins ago now you were PMSin about how I was playing COD instead of studyin' for "TOMORROW'S" PAT.....LIKE HOLY SHIT!!! And now your pissed off cuase I "was" giving you attitude and you blame it on my games. Can't you blame like something else or do you hate what I like that much?

Syiniyed’s Rage

Goodnight World

PAT is tomorrow. So what? Oh well, but more importantly, it’s last DAY OF MOTHERFUCKEN FRENCH TOMORROW!!!!!!!!HELL YEAH!!!!! As well, I’m going to do something that will change my life, for better or for worse.

AHH Dammit Che

Screw you and your “sexy over all” motto. It’s rubbed off to me now. Like every time I look at gear or shit I fricken say like, “Dude that looks gay no way.” Even thought it gets the job done and is cost effective. But then again I am a geardo so w/e.

Syiniyed’s Rage

Well this sucks

I somehow feel like I don’t want to go to school tomorrow. Probably because I’m like super lazy but w/e. Goodnight

 

Syiniyed’s Rage

I’m saying goodnight now

I need sleep. No its not rocket science or Grade nine math okay? KTHXBAI!

 

Syiniyed’s Lol

We fail at making videos

Wow, Yihe and I were filming like the “Pilot” of our show as well as some shooting but we like picked the worst times to do it. Lol and it takes up too much cpu space………..Rage.

Syiniyed’s Fail

*Sigh I guess it’s true that Assassin’s work better Alone.

Today was Grade 9 Farewell party. A day where we all reflect on what has became of those grade 7 kids three years ago who were “sweet and innocent”. As I look back, I think that I have brought all this misery and pain upon myself. I can’t think straight anymore. I can’t tell who I like and who I care for, or both. Now I just want to leave them four alone. Maybe they will meet someone better than me, who knows? But I need to stop hurting myself and them at the same time. But do not have that power. During the dance I was having fun. But then the pain hit me tenfold during the aftermath.

“Holy shit what have I been doing?”

Now I know what my course of action is. Leave them all and take everything with me that I left. This will create a lot of pain for me. It will make my journey a whole lot harder then what it should be without someone there with me. But who wants to be with me anyways? I can vision myself right now just leaving spiritually from them. With my back facing them and the rain and shadows slowly consuming the image of me. For an Assassin always works better alone. Our paths will split here, and when they meet again. It will be the news that I have died from the job I  choose to do.

 

Syinyied’s Pain

I got another blog

I got another blog…No I’m not stopping this one but the new one is for like 100% of my social life. No airsoft and less emotional shit.

 

Syiniyed’s FYI

The rain outside is calming.

When most people stayed inside today from the rain, I went outside to embrace it. I like it a lot. It mixes with the tears from my sorrow so no one sees me cry. It also shows that in something so bleak and depressing, life or happiness will eventually pop out. And the rainbow? That’s just the elements and nature in perfect harmony to create works of art. Just like how love flourishes in the bleakest of times. If only that were true for me.

 

Syiniyed’s Pain

OMG Today was a day of fail

We had like no work today. It was very good. That math test was easy as shit. AND WE HAD A LOT OF SUBS!!!!!!! Our fail social teacher Mr. Baldwin made himself look like a tool today. There was some random question about like what the Judicial Branch of Canada does in the rule making and shit. Then he was like, “ Oh yeah the judicial branch is there to make sure the law is not followed.” Not many people picked it up but Akira and I were keen eared and laughed our asses off. Then we did some pen spinning for like the rest of the classes since there was nothing better to do. But holy shit is it raining hard outside today or what? But I like it.

 

Syiniyed’s Joy

Wow the Sky is not Falling!!!!!! Woot!!!!!

This is some very GOOD news!!!! For all of us Canadian airsofters. I like what I’m seeing.

Syiniyed’s Joy

Dang I fail

Well today we had a 30minute run in gym. Fucking great. It's not that bad cuase I usually can do it pretty good. But the two people who never, ever lap me lapped me today...I feel like somethings wrong. Even though it's not a race still.....

Then the only one teammate who was like a mirror image of myself left for good. I never dreammed that he would leave airsoft. And for what reason you ask? LV shoes, a iPhail (iPhone), and a new laptop. But once a Shadow Ranger, always a Shadow Ranger. This event weighs heavily on my shoulders. 'Cause I'm the team leader, I'm supposed to make sure that my teammates are all in good order. Somehow I feel like I did something wrong. At least we have two new members coming soon. I feel like our team is starting to drift but I know if we all try, we can pull together again.


Syiniyed's Pain

Goodnight All!

Syiniyed's hitting the hay tonight. I want to hide in my little shell and wonder where I fucked up.

I think I'm kind of a dick.

As I slack off from my french and lose time that I could be sleeping, I think about how big of a dick I am. Hell I can't even decide who I like, I just go with the flow. Obviously that is messing people up and I think it's a really selfish act. Maybe on my last relationship, if I gave it more time then this would not be happening. But then again am I not hurting her if I kept that secret away from her? One thing is for certain, I would NEVER ever dare mess around with a girl that one of my friends like. I will never stoop that low, I may act really kind around them, but it's out of respect and not trying to steal them away.

Not to mention when I join the army, I say that it's for my parents sake so they can spend that money on themselves. In the big picture, they will spend many moments worring about me and wondering what went wrong. However, this is a sacrifice for te Grand picture of the world. Ever night I grow older and closer to my goal. But everynight, I ask myself will I give up my loved ones for people I don't know? I feel weak.

Syiniyed's Sorrow

Hey man we are a team! Don't be a dick and ditch us!

Come on man... your ditching us for Shoes and a laptop? If it was a girl then okay but FOR REAL>??? What about Costa? Haley, Magpul, M4, Tacticool, raceguns? WE need you as a scout and I'll be damned if we have to pu Sidhu as recon...Cuase that will suck. Your a member of Shadow Rangers no matter what. But for real, stay.


Syiniyed's Rage

SCREW THIS French SHIT!!!!!

Well this shit sucks... Fucken french shit thats like ten paragraphs worth of dumb shit. Its so gay and we're being maked heavily for this....At least she made my day by sending me some funny emotes on MSN.... Hey, does this mean anything? Naw...She thinks I'm like some gay-ass pedo. *sigh This sucks.



Syiniyed's Pain

OMG I DON'T GET WHY I'M ALWAYS HOUSECLEANING ON SUNDAY!!!!

Jeeze...It feels like I never have a day to myself. I mean on Saturday I have a tutor for like the whole day and then I have to like clean up around the house after that. Then I need to vaccum, wash, and polish the various hardwood and carpet around this joint on Sunday. Not to mention I have school from like Monday to Friday....Gosh it's a lot to handle... But at least I got my piece'o'crap shotgun today so I can do some funny shit with it. Lol whatever. It's time for me to fess up to her what I did wrong...

Syiniyed's Pain

I'm saying goodnight becuase I can

Well I'm like going to bed now.... I finally found where I hid my old tunes and I'm listenin' to it now... Makes me think about the past three years and how I've changed. I don't know if its for better or for worse. That mech poster I had there is now gone. It fell off and I don't know where it went. Just like how I feel like I lost a part of me.

Syiniyed's Sorrow

Welcome

Yeah this is where I talk about shit on a daily basis....Be very scared. It's all about my life on and off the airsoft hotseat.