As I slack off from my french and lose time that I could be sleeping, I think about how big of a dick I am. Hell I can't even decide who I like, I just go with the flow. Obviously that is messing people up and I think it's a really selfish act. Maybe on my last relationship, if I gave it more time then this would not be happening. But then again am I not hurting her if I kept that secret away from her? One thing is for certain, I would NEVER ever dare mess around with a girl that one of my friends like. I will never stoop that low, I may act really kind around them, but it's out of respect and not trying to steal them away.
Not to mention when I join the army, I say that it's for my parents sake so they can spend that money on themselves. In the big picture, they will spend many moments worring about me and wondering what went wrong. However, this is a sacrifice for te Grand picture of the world. Ever night I grow older and closer to my goal. But everynight, I ask myself will I give up my loved ones for people I don't know? I feel weak.
Syiniyed's Sorrow
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